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of all the superficial idiots in my life.
I'm getting ready to go back to nacogdoches and I'm so so so ready to be back with people who make sense to me.
Old roommate moved out, new awesome roommate on her way. :) Its going to be fun living together.
Anyway, back to my bitching...
I have this theory that corpus is this big giant deuchy suckhole, that makes people unpleasant, rude, irritatable, and mopey.
I wish I had real friends to hang out with here. I have about 3, possibly 4. And they are all from different social circles for the most part.
Everyone else, is only friends for the time being. Outside of corpus, we don't care whats going on in eachothers lives, & since we have no feelings invested in our "friendships" , its so easy to not call, or facebook or even keep in contact over the semesters. It drives me nuts that I don't talk to any of these people for like 4 or 5 months, and then suddenly everyones back in corpus, and its like we're best friends. I don't get it.
I don't really think anybody elses friendships go this way. Other groups of friends actually care and talk to one another, and share juicy stories, and laughter, and experiences, and fuck ups....and thats normal.
I think its only our weirdo thing to holding on a billion old friendships for the sake of being "polite"....nobody even knows eachother other than the basic surface level stuff. Yet, we can all go to dinner together, and talk about god knows some mindless boring stuff about work or school or worse argue about those mindless subjects. And we can all get together and drink and sit around in little clusters making small talk, and pretending to have a good time.
Sure there is the occasional conversation about something actually real, which brings me and that one person an inch closer in our friendship, but for the most part its a bunch of empty crap.
We're all wrong for eachother I guess. Maybe this happened because some of us are the keep to yourself, non socializing types. I don't think I believe in non-socializing. I feel at one point or another you have to start talking, and taking care of the people in your lives.
And if all that weren't bad enough. The mopey, corpus suck types criticizes our friends behind their backs, finds something wrong about them, even though they are wonderful people, and then that burns more bridges and makes things even more awkward. you have too many standards for us all to live up to.
Let me make something clear, we're all friends, most of us are, but its more like in the past few years we've moved closer to becoming acquaintances than becoming better friends. I knew you all so much better in highschool. Of course I know that we're all in college, and we're supposed to grow apart in some ways, but I hate that coming to corpus feels like we're only hanging out with eachother because we're here, and we don't have better plans, or know anyone else to hangout with.
I feel like giving up on all you people. Lets be real friends, or lets please stop pretending.
p.s. LJ is my bitching journal. And blogspot is my happy creative journal. I think this is a good system. Especially since nobody really reads either. So I can organize my thoughts, and if I feel like only remembering the good stuff. I'll just delete this LJ. hoorah.
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[12 Jun 2007|12:17pm] |
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I'm extremely frustrated with my computer...
it lost at least an hour of hard work I did last night...
I can't wait to get a macbook pro for college
.....anyways, other than working on college stuff last night, I got distracted (of course) and started looking up drink recipes from this bartender website. That was fun, I looked up cocktails, margaritas and shot games.
I think it would be fun to be a bartender one day, you know, just like a summer gig to learn all the flare and drinks. On the other hand, maybe i've just been watching too much of the ultimate coyote. =P
alright, time to go back and redo last nights work.....what a drag
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[10 Oct 2006|04:56pm] |
The past few days have been extremely frustrating and lonely. I don't know what's wrong with me all of a sudden.
Maybe I'm always tired because I stay up till 130 watching boy meets world (of course I can't help it!) How else am I supposed to catch up on a whole lifetime of cory and topanga, when I just got cable a few months ago?
Anyways, this week has been/will be the craziest.
I need music.
I'm going to make myself get an ipod soon.
I need to figure out how to convince my parents that I'll need a car when I go to college..
This whole, growing up thing, is giving me headaches.
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[06 Apr 2006|07:16pm] |
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muse- our time is running out |
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woah.
okay, so they called me to the office today to finish my schedule for next year or whatever. blah.
its a rough schedule, i'll probably change alot of stuff later.
bimm. I wont need the computer credit, but I think the class would just be cool. and diersing teaches it, i've heard she's swell. I want to talk to her about it. its like a photoshop, graphic...mulitmedia class i think.
french 3. I might change it to honors, purely just not to be surrounded by retarded people, who'd rather sleep the class away.
art 1. ...again, I already took art 2 drawing freshman year. this would be just an elective credit ..and for fun. ...but its a step down.. does anybody think i should take art 2 cermaics instead? ( i like getting my hands dirty)
regular gov/eco/eng 4. 'cause i'm lazy. i hope i get nycum! and euresti!
my grade in physics is...very bad. I dont even know my grade for the 2nd nine weeks. But if it was a 70, i could just retake the second semester in summerschool. for about 12 days. not bad. or, take physics, or IPC next year..which..i'd really rather not do. ugh...
and then I would have 7th period off, except coach just told us this morning that tennis would be in the afternooons, and...I might as well add the class. It'd probably HELP my gpa. but it wouldnt count for any credits.
I'm ready to get back to tennis this summer, I'm gonna make it count. really. It's my senior year, its tennis. I might want to play intermuriels?...in college, but i dont know if I'll even have the will, or the time.
We'll probably be getting a new coach next year, but mcmurrey's going to leave us in good hands. I think I want to sign up for local tournaments for the summer too. anyways. i'm done. kbye.
.so many spelling , grammar, and typing errors. oh well.
please comment, tell me what you think.
:( sorry, i couldnt get the cut thing to work.
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| NOT EVACUATING:( |
[21 Sep 2005|07:37pm] |
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AHHHHHH!!!
So, Hurricane Rita is headed towards good ole Texas! :( And I'm truely terrifyed. My family has decided, that we arent going to evacuate (even though its mandatory), unless the weather people say that its coming straight for corpus. It's so stupid! I want to get the heck out of here right now!!!! I'm so scarred that I may never see some of my friends again, especially what happened with the Hurricane Katrina victims. In fact, my mother said she was bringing life jackets, and bike helmets. ( I must be floating down the streets, trying to survive for dear life) and we ARENT EVACUATING!!?
[Breakdown.]
I hate the fact the we havent even boarded up our house yet, or that we havent even packed just in case we do evacuate. I've never really felt this scarred before. (well besides weird night mares when you're like 6)
I can't reach my sister, or some of friends. :(
Pray to God that everyone will be ok!
C'est la vie...
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[11 Sep 2005|11:54am] |
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I love when it rains...
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[01 Aug 2005|03:40am] |
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this is what mornings are for.
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| Heres to you Summer '05 |
[29 Jul 2005|10:37pm] |
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I should have been: cleaning my room
I actually was: watching tv slash dancing around just 'cause
and this is how most everyday goes, just insert non-fun thing and replace with lazy bum thing
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